Alexan Ong Wei Xiang
aka Elephant
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CanningValeCollege
Currently stuck in Aus
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Email: ong_is_lame@hotmail.com
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+Min Xin Primary School
+YuNeng Primary School
+PSLE Aggregate Score of 226
+HaiSing Catholic School
+National Cadet Corps LAND unit
+Riverlife Church
+Hai Sing Cell
+Canning Vale College
Follow God's Lead
Grow Taller =P
Good Results?
Fly Back To Singapore Electric Guitar Freedom in Aussie Simple n Happy Life
A New Phone!
A More Tolerant Self Someone To Understand Me in Aussie The Thing Demanded From Santa
Star-Shaped Sunglasses ☆.☆
Someone that understands me [Jian]
New Bag [Zinc]
More paper
Multi-Colour pen set[Samantha]
Own Computer [Windows XP]
PSP
MP3
New Specs
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3rd Sergeant Alexan Ong Wei Xiang
Specialist Camp: March 2008 Batch
HSC NCC LAND 2006 Batch
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My favourite chillout spot in Singapore
Found it when I was eating Japanese Buffet at Suntec
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Mocha Frappe
from McDonalds
One of my favourite coffees =)
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My Bestie in the first two years of secondary school
We use to take bus to school together
Well, that din't stay long
After all
Social people cannot keep their friends for long
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Edwin Ong
Mr Blame himself
Always blame himself in weird situation
Apart from that, he is quite nice =)
I heard he is part of Haising cell now
Cell Member!
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Fiona Lim Wei
Classmate for sec one and two
only started talking to her in secondary three
pretty dumb and funny
Attached to my Bestie Toh now
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Renee Phee Huai Le
HaiSing Cell Member
Classmate for three years
It's intendedly Four
But I had to come to aussie
Very Cheerful friend =)
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Marvin Koh Si Tat
Classmate for 2 years
one of my closes friends
Though always thought as a immature lame kid,
he can be quite caring =)
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I joined the HSCS Prefectorial Board at secondary one
First camp of that year, I've already made a name for myself
The one who scold the Discipline Master " Bloody Hell"
The loud one
The fierce one
One year of hard work wasted as I got kicked out of it
I was involved in a quarrel with another prefect
Maybe the discipline master saw this as his only solution
many have tried to resolve our conflict anyway...
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HSC secondary one batch of 2006
The class known for it's team work
Proudly a member of this class
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Professor Puay Jian Jun
aka. MM, Xiao jian, Jian
More of an aquaintance in the early years of secondary school
slowly and gradually became good friends
His mind run on the same frequency as Me and Mr Tan PY
well, lets just say we think too much
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Tan Wei Yan
Mr Flirt alot
Used to hate his discriminating actions in secondary one
Became part of it in secondary two
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Seetoh Kian Hoe
aka. GAY, Toh
Mr Girls-Fall-In-Love
center of attention of girls
well
always cool and calm
panics if he has to
Bestie =)
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Lim Yu Cheng
One of the three prefects
(Me, Toh, and him)
He remained in prefects after Toh left and I was suspended
The rest are history
One of the most immature ones
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member of RiverLife Church Singapore
under Hai Sing Cell
One of the little places where people cared
Megalife Camp
Grouping: Strato Errai
I heard the cell is pretty big now
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Kimberly Ang Hui Shi
Chairman of class 1E6
Hyper and friendly girl
(not to mention crazy too)
Hope.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Life After You Daughtry
Ten miles from town and I just broke down Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin' To see you so I've started runnin'
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter As long as I'm laughin' with you I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after After the life we've been through 'Cause I know there's no life after you
Last time we talked, the night that I walked Burns like an iron in the back of my mind I must've been high to say you and I Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you? You know I would die here without you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter As long as I'm laughin' with you I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after After the life we've been through 'Cause I know there's no life after you
You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one After this time I spent alone It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind So I'm runnin' back to tell you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter As long as I'm laughin' with you I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after After the life we've been through, yeah Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you Know there's no life after you, yeah
____________________________ Life, what keeps it going?
Religious views?
Goal?
Dream?
But without a feeling of safety how would someone dare to think so far into the future? People always ignore the fact that they can die anytime just like how physics ignore wind resistance.
Where does this feeling of safety come from? Is everyone so certain of when they will die? Or maybe they simply cling on something called Hope.
Hope. Is that what keeps people living? Without hope, wouldn't people simply commit suicide? cowering to the fact they are going to die anyway? Without hope, would people still have the time to think about what they want to achieve? Seems like Hope is pretty important isnt it?
However Hope, although reassuring, is not certain Things may happen, things may not Even with hope, people will die eventually Even with hope, there are things that can never be accomplished
I believe our surroundings does not matter. I believe those obstacles does not matter I believe as long as we have hope and that you trust me Nothing is impossible.
So promise me you will trust this "hope" just like how you, me and everyone else trust it, with their life. Stop letting the future bother you We can, and we will, change the future.
Behind the fun and games [Updated]
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
This is a highlight post so all the events of my trip to Singapore will be hyper linked on this post :) (All pictures are resized for the post, ask me for originals) All Done!! :D
Well this whole trip back to Singapore is beyond just fun and games
Yes Finally! the part you have been waiting for
I have to apologize for the delay I was either occupied or lazy then when I felt like posting, I got sick :S
Have been puking for a few days, so yeah :P
Anyway IF you are actually bothered to read all the posts listed above you would realise they are very short and basic nothing about personal feelings and thoughts
Yes, it is on purpose
Why so? because I know all the feelings and thoughts I had in Singapore are important, so I want to put them all into one single post This post :)
To me the greatest challenge I had in singapore is friendship I was left in a situation where one wrong move could either cause me to crack or cause some important friendships to end
But yes, things went well. I learned to accept that there are somethings I cant do nor provide and that is where someone else comes in and fill in that spot yes, jealousy is there, but what can I do
When you cannot provide a person with the happiness someone else can. The next best thing you can do for this person is help him/her protect it
and that is what I have done so proud of yourself WeiXiang XD
Another big challenge for me is my reunion with God yes yes, if you are anti christ or whatever, you might as well skip this part
The while thing was pretty, I dont know... unexpected? It was new years eve. Shaun shared with everyone at the party about his life
How he brought a single cell (or youth group) up to five and how something made him left church and the five cells crumbled down He said that he was given a second chance in his walk with God one that he didnt even knew he had at that moment of time
and that second chance is us Hai Sing Cell
I was very touched by that story, I guess I kind of made me this of the things that happened in Australia and more of how I reacted to it
Second chances huh? Do I have one? Would I ever have one?
Will things be different if I ever had one?
Before the countdown, I had a one to one talk with Shaun He suggest that its time I removed the wall I built around myself. and the very next thing I should do? Apologize
Apologize for unnecessary accusations. It was then I knew, if I were to have a second chance.
My first step would be there.
Many other things happened but they are pretty personal, so I guess I wont post about them My overall comment of the trip?
Fulfilled.
"You remember when you told Shaun you were hoping that your trip back would help you realize things?" "Yea?" "I think it really did help"
and if you still wanna listen to the song. Its here XD
Bless The Broken Road Rascal Flatts
I set out on a narrow way many years ago Hoping I would find true love along the broken road But I got lost a time or two Wiped my brow and kept pushing through I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
[Chorus:] Every long lost dream led me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you But you just smile and take my hand You've been there you understand It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
[Chorus]
Now I'm just rolling home Into my lover's arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you.
And yes Friends are the best thing you can get in life apart from God and curry sauce
P6D Meet-up
Monday, December 28, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Went to meet up with my primary school friends at Parkway Parade today :D Not everyone went, the number was pretty small. But still, its good to see them :)
Met Javen, Joel and Joey outside Guardian Yan Juan and Zi Jie came later :P
We walked around the whole mall ,thinking of what to eat finally decided on Swensens :)
Zi Jie being shy :P
The ladies
Nazurah joined us halfway through the meal talked about stuffs that happened over the years
Seems like Joey actually wrote a "flame" article that sort of made her infamous
Wee Keat had work, so he joined us late we were waiting for him to arrive when...
Joey decided its ok to disturb a little boy
Nazurah had to go, so we took a few pictures and said bye :P
When Wee Keat arrived we took bus to East Coast Park and played bowling :D Joey had to go after bringing us to the Bowling alley, so she didnt play :(
Weekeat tries to kick Joel in the head :P
The scored were pretty nice ehh?
All 9
All Spare
At the end of it we took a Taxi back to Bedok interchange
Joel and Javen left I walked around, talking to Weekeat
WeeKeat
Top Achievement of the day? not the bowling score
but my deed in defending Joey and Weekeat
Joel "because smokers are bad" ME"Smokers are not bad, they smoke for a reason"
Sea of thoughts
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Betrayal is a sin you will do well to remember that
"why are you doing this? why would you even consider it?" "ahhh, why get so agitated, its not like he hasnt done worse things" "your point?" "he is going to burn in hell anyway"
Owl Human Hybrid
Monday, December 21, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Blindness Deafness Short term memory
and now incapable of sleeping?
Geez.... My body seems to be undergoing serious degradation
I guess I could partly blame the heat I only have a 10cm-radius fan in my room and its like, 4m away from me
Even at full blast, it feels like nothing
The other part to this may be my brain it just keeps thinking and thinking and etc
it can be about everything whether I should watch a movie whether I have enough money what I have planned for my trip to singapore who I have to call the next day who I have to meet the next day and whether I should talk about korean boy bands
ah yes, I've been having a dilemma about whether I should post regarding Korean Boy Bands (note the caps)
It seems to be a very "major" trend in both Singapore and Australia but more like a resurrection of the Taiwan trend to me except it is in a different country
and they speak a language I dont understand
now, before I continue this post
Yes, it is a negative post No, it is not to insult the boy bands, but the fans
ok, lets get started
There are three types of fans in this whole trend
The Admirers The Friend-Trend Person & The "for the sake of it" person
The Admirers are the people who like or possibly love the boy band (lets call it BB for short). They like the music, they like the action and they are mostly fans before this trend even started. I do know a few people that are admirers and there is nothing, totally nothing, wrong with them. In fact, without them, this trend probably wouldnt have started.
(Y) to Toh Toh, Marv & Cassiie
The Friend-Trend person are the... "moderately" disgusting fans. They never really enjoyed korean music or culture or etc before this whole trend. But when it started, they force themselves to Korean BB music. As a way of getting closer to a friend? or for whatever reasons. These people are normally friends with The Admirers, thus gets influenced. And these people also tend to be the overly-crazy-fans at the end of the day.
e.g. "OOOMMMMGGGGGG, ITS *insert korean boy name*'s BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!$@#%@#^%$^@^@"
Lastly The "for the sake of it" person. These are the people who usually dont share a relationship with neither the Admirers nor the Friend-Trend. However, an aim for that relationship is exactly why they turn out to be fans.
In simpler form? People who go with a trend just to make themselves look cool
These people are very easily identified for they would know nothing about korean BBs and they would usually be accompanied with a few korean words just to make them look professional.
Did I mention these are the most disgusting type of the three?
So dear Korean BB fans what are you?
(I shortened this by a lot to try to make it seem less offensive) PS: I support this page XD
Also, I wanted to type about the overrated use of "lah" in australia. Its almost as if people are trying to create austra-lish
But I guess I should stop here If this post was actually posted in some big shot forum, it would be majorly flamed
Note to self + Lesson learnt
It was foolish to judge a book by it's cover It was foolish to trust It was foolish to think a year 10 could be anymore mature than a year 11
Anyway when business is slow I get paid by doing this
Duties
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The Duties
Well People have been saying about how I throw something into a post and never explain about it So I'm here to explain I really don' t see what's so difficult anyway.
But yes This is the duties of a background man Regular background man goes on the sequence
Sorrow - Mission - Progress - Memories - New Task
Those who cannot bear the "absurd-ness" of being a background man tend to sidetrack from their mission Thus goes on the hard way
How does this have to do with me? why did I draw it? Oh, did I not mention I am a background man?
Lets just say I have been through that cycle twice already Both making the same mistake and taking it the hard way If I'm right, the trip to Singapore will be under "Repent"
And there you go the reason why a person would want to be sitting outdoors at 5am having a pen in his hand and music in his ears
Part of it was due to my incapability to sleep again yea, I just laid on my bed from 2am - 5am doing nothing
I had to lie to my parents that I woke up early Or they'll think I did not sleep because I wanted to play computer games. I'm a game maniac to them, or at least I seem to be one
To add to my problems Doing too much... "workout"... isnt really helping me Blindness and deafness is becoming very common
It seems like my body wants me to be fat choking up my superior vena cava every time I... "workout"
Well look on the bright side Singapore in 8 days
wait... maybe that isnt such a good thing after all
Savior
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Savior Rise Against
It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten what the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them as the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you walls that we just can't break through until we disappear so tell me now if this ain't love then how do we get out? cause I don't know that's when she said I don't hate you boy I just want to save you while there's still something left to save that's when I told her I love you girl but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
and the day pressed on like crushing weights for no man does it ever wait like memories of dying days that deafen us like hurricanes bathed in flames we held the brand uncurled the fingers in your hand pressed into the flesh like sand now do you understand? so tell me now if this ain't love then how do we get out? cause I don't know that's when she said I don't hate you boy I just want to save you while there's still something left to save that's when I told her I love you girl but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
one thousand miles away there's nothing left to say but so much left that I don't know we never had a choice this world is too much noise it takes me under it takes me under once again
I don't hate you I don't hate you, no so tell me now if this ain't love then how do we get out? cause I don't know that's when she said I don't hate you boy I just want to save you while there's still something left to save that's when I told her I love you girl but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have I don't hate you I don't hate you, no
True true
PS- I love his voice It sounds like he is screaming the shit out of his lungs, but he isnt D:
Tracking back on the moments [Completed]
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Cathy is leaving and she's not coming back for at least a year It made me wonder a few things so I asked her
Me" What about your friends?" Cathy"Ohh, they came over last night and we play mahjong...... *sidetracks*"
I concluded that her way of saying goodbye is have a fun night at her house :S
This somehow made me think about my entire life like, literally.
And now, I somehow felt like I should type this out..
Aeroplane's in the sky everyday. Mum had me live in my grandma's house. Dad was gone. Walking down the huge stairway, I would always tend to avoid the storeroom. Since I once encountered a grey spider, alot bigger than my hand. Once, I closed the glass slide-door in my Grandparent's room and the whole door ran over my foot. My whole toe nail came off and it probably bled for a long time.
Eating Mcdonalds in Toa Payoh The very first time I decided to stop using ketchup and eat with Garlic chilli sauce. Loved the harsh browns every morning and western food at night. Evenings are spend on playgrounds with a shovel in my hand. I once managed to dig so deep, i found water. It was an achievement to me, a big one
6years old, Bedok community kindergarden. I would sing my national anthem with hope, not pride. Hoping that singing that song will give me my long awaited Gameboy COLOUR. 7 years old, same thing, except I believe in staring at the stage light and singing my school song instead.
My friend of concern at 7years old (primary one) was a kid called markus. It was not until primary two that I realised he is retarded. Like seriously, handicapped kind of retarded. Shafiq, My best friend in primary two. I would love to bring my Gameboy classic (the one without colour) and Digivice (Second generation) and match each other. Going to his house everyday. Sometimes, I think he hold his pee for too long and he pees on his pants. I was able to identify the smell of dried pee on him, but I never told him off. We even had a Best friend theme in which we would sing everytime we are going to his house. One time, he had to go to his Grandma's house. While walking there, a dog came by and he ran off. I asked him why he ran off and he told me it is against his religion to get licked by dogs. If so, they have to use mud to wash they legs. I simply nodded in confusion.
Primary three was with a pale skinny guy called Andy and a fat transfer kid from China. They were nice and friendly. the china kid (no offence to china people, I forgot his name) like pick fights with Glenn Tan, the school rebel. and I would always be in between, since I talk to Glenn too. Math at that age was my specialty, no one in my class knew how to divide, except for me. Mum gave me a head start at home, in which made me one step ahead of the rest. The feeling of being smart was so good, so I decided to be ahead of the rest in everything. Everything except for Mother tongue, thats what we call Chinese/Malay/Tamil language back in singapore. I would always run off with Serene, Sebastian, Joanne and Wan Hui to the nearby playground to play. To me at that age. Wan Hui was the prettiest girl around. But the irony to that is, I dont even remember how she looks like now.
The records for primary three
A fake recorder fight got three cane strokes on my ass
Glue on my teacher's chair
Primary Four came. the China dude went back to china. I went with Glenn, Jun Yuan, Chin Chai and Nicolas. My primary school merged with a neighboring one, and everything changed. I became a rebellious kid. Wan Hui, Sebastian and Serene are people I dont talk to anymore. Chin Chai and Glenn are always around after school. We would own the neighboring playground and claim it as our territory. Any kids around would be beaten up. Like seriously, beaten up. Then came Glenn's friend. He is much older than us, calls himself Geylang. Glenn likes to tell me how he blows a siren everything trouble arrives. And his gang would appear to back him up. It didnt make sense to me as I have never heard of gang fights in Bedok, but ahh, a kid at that age believes in everything.
Mr Alan Mui was my form teacher. And if you wonder what a form teacher is, it is the teacher incharge of a class, take it as a advocate teacher. And dont forget we dont leave our classrooms during different sessions in Singapore, the teachers come to us like cats and dogs. Mr Mui likes to catch me daydreaming. I remember once, I was staring out of the window. looking at trees, clouds and stuffs. Everyone around me stared laughing and it made me wonder why. Turning around, I saw Mr Mui with his screen projector pointing at me. Making an imaging of me daydreaming on the class projection screen. It was funny, but the scolding part which follows after spoiled it. I still talk to Joanne back from primary three. She sits next to me, in the back left side of the class. and with our portable whiteboard + marker, she would write a list of boys she likes. I always get them all right. Until one day, there was an additional name. I guessed with all I could but never got it right. In the end. She told me the the last name is my name. being just a 10 years old kid. I didnt know what to say. She didnt seem to want to progress furthur from that point anyway. So I just let it be and we remained as friends.
Primary four was also my streaming year. With all those rebellious acts, its was obvious I got streaming into an average class. That year. My sister graduated from primary school with a PSLE score of 233. Her best friend got 236. Mum would like to compare her with her bestfriend. asking why she is not smart enough to score higher. I was afraid the same would happen to me, since my sister's best friend had a younger sister, called Xin Ping, and she is at my age.
Primary 5, I was streamed into P5D. (A) was the worse class, (I) was the best. I kept telling myself I should study. But games are all I ever got involved with. P5 P6 is spent with Guo Xiang, Kengpon, Wee keat and Tun Jun. Glenn was no more, Joanne was in my class, but we dont talk much anymore. Guo xiang was in love with Yu lin, which we liked to bully our way to become friends. Together with Yu lin was Shi Rui, Yan Juan and Joey. All these are famaliar names to people who would actually go through my facebook friends list. Yes, I am still in contact with them. Guo Xiang was my closest friend. He would call me his brother of the opposite. That is because I was the top in class and he was at the bottom. He was good at gaming and Im not as good. Did I mention gaming? Yes. That was when I started playing Maple EAST. The very first version of Maplestory. Tun Jun was my favourite target. We would always bully him for his way of behaving. Kengpon and Wee keat are the mature ones. two years passed. And PSLE came. I played maplestory through the whole of it and surprisingly, I got a score of 226. It made me the only student in my class that is streamed into "express". The funny thing was. I defeating Xin Ping, she scored 207.
P6D BBQ was our last time together. I remember playing with everyone water bombs. Drinking bubble tea and using the straw to spit out the bubbles. It was a perfect target practise. At night, when everyone is asleep, I stood up with Jacky and Joey (Jacky was a classmate). Jacky and I somehow made Joey cried twice. in one night. Maybe we were being mean to her, maybe we were playing. I dont recall ehhh. But I do know we had a improved friendship after that, and I had a fever for staying up the whole night.
Everyone went to a neighborhood secondary school. I went into Hai Sing Catholic School. First few days of orientation are fun, my first ever friend in Hai Sing is Gordon. We take the MRT home together in the first few weeks, talking about our primary schools and how fat he used to be. I remember Kai Ping finding me weird when she asked me why my face is always so red and I told her its because I eat too much apples.
First ever camp in secondary school made someone hate me. His name is Wei Yan, charismatic guy and popular. I dont really remember why he disliked me but it made my first camp feel like hell. Friends around me that time was Eric and Edwin. I take bus 17 to school with Eric every morning, and occasionally after school. Xin Yan was a teacher-in-training we had in our school library. We like to visit her at times because we would get access to the school internet without restrictions. Soon after, Xin Yan had to leave to study in a University in New Zealand.
Prefects was the leadership role I took up in secondary one. But I shall not talk about this. clues and relations? "Lucifer with a different fall"
Secondary two was mostly about outings and stuff. Not to mention, it also was the first time I got into a relationship. But there are things that I shouldnt be talking about in a public blog. So its a skip for this. I could say it was a process that I learned to like and regret. Many things have been taught to me through experience and it somehow contributed to the making of who I am now. As I was saying, outings. Eric, Renee, Wei Yan (yes, we accepted our differences) ,Ediwn, Yu Cheng, Kimberly, Jin Yang, Jason and a lot more, we like to visit the Beach nearby, oh, did I not mention? Hai Sing Catholic School was near Pasir Ris beach, which is(obviously) a beach :)
Church was a place where I got closer to when I was in a relationship. But things change alot. When I was with Joelle, I always have a feeling people in church disliked me. Maybe they think I was there only to accompany my girlfriend. I do admit, that was my only intention initially, but things changed. Its almost unexplainable. I remember my first time there, when Paster Joyce said "Lets bow our heads in prayer" and everyone started praying in tongue. Everything felt so weird and I got afraid, like, SERIOUSLY :S
But yes, things got better. Secondary three, after my relationship with Joelle ended, I still attend church on my own. I met alot of wonderful people in church and church camp. Vera, Christabel, Joy, Cavell, Teng Hua, Ryan.... too much to count. They made me feel so loved and cared, I consider them my family. Morever, stressful family life in Singapore was a contributing factor.
I wasn't as close to Eric anymore. I guess it was partly my fault, I admit I neglected my friends due to the relationship I was in. Relationships over friends. Soooo yeah... Sec three was with Seetoh, JK, marv, Jian, Fishy, piggie, Edwin, Zhe Rui, Jason and more. Seetoh, Marv, Zhe Rui and I were Maximum tune 3 maniacs, until we got sick of it. JK, ZheRui and me, together with Dominic and Ye min formed a band and we played how to save a life by The Fray. I was on the bass :D Fishy and Piggie learned abit of Guitar from me. But Piggie is more of church activities and Fishy was more of text message disturber :D We like to hang out after school for lunch in Mcdonalds or the new food court. Occasionally, we would be in Jason's house. Playing PS2, PC games and stuff. Life was almost as if its complete to me. Everything was so perfect (except for studies). then came the news of a plan my parents has been making for more than two years, which they never talked much about. What plan? Migration to Australia.
Story in Australia shall not be written just yet. Since the chapter has not ended. But Im pretty sure its gonna be a very interesting one. Funny how that contradicts with the boring life Im experiencing :S
Note that there are something missing -Primary 4 camp -Primary 5 Perth trip skipped -Beloved Primary 6 tuition friends -Pin Yi Secondary School -Prefects -Relationship -Sec 2 Mobile Camp -National Cadet Corps -Shu Shan & Magdalene -a lot more
Why? knowing someone's past is the way to know someone's future I shall not explain further
Missing
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Honoo no Tobira FictionJunction YUUKA
Translations: I'll open the door of dawn with wounded fingers Because I've decided to choose tomorrow with my hands
Oh wind, now strongly Support the blazes worn on my body
To the other side of the door I hold up my tender hands And take away the tears For the sake of believing in love again
Sparkling faintly- That light is for giving to whom? The children point at the flowers blooming in the sky
To the vanished horizon I take off to search for the seeds of hope
Evening calm pass by Oh sorrow, now quietly Watch over me Until the day When I return to my home again
Red rain pours onto the earth of grief The crying voice of the wind fans the dark flames
It's a distant promise A nostalgic voice Please support my quivering chest my dear......
To the door of flames I hold up my tender hands And take away tomorrow I want to know love again, from my heart Now I open The sky of destiny
You have changed Ale and I'm proud of you
calm, silence and planning is the way you approach things now straight up, thoughtful and righteous was the way before reckless, childish and ignorant was when you were young
Thought it seems like you have grown alot you have lost alot too.
So now, if I were to put your friend into trouble and make him/her real upset leaving him/her with you alone for comfort
will you still be able to help? or will you be limited by your plans and schemes?
right back at you for being a bastard
PS you just want your friends to know how much you have done for them but thats not going to happen, its never going to
Hold your dreams
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
so you've lost one motivation and now you lose another. so much of a failure.
but I suppose that isnt all to you. if you should branch your life out into two obvious sections
you know one is out of reach and the other is screwed no point getting upset over it being screwed, you did it yourself. all you have to do now is rely on those minor hopes you have its just one more year my friend, one more year and this will be refreshed.
maybe then you will realised screwing your life up is not such a good idea after all
oh well. just a bit more, hold your dreams
credits this song my my PSP
Hold your dreams FAME Crew Official FAME OST
Countless hours of learning more Countless hours of knowing less Can't look behind you You have to look ahead.
So many doubts running through your mind All the excuses Don't have the time All the rejection you have to leave behind
Leave it all behind
Hold your dreams Don't ever let it go Be yourself And let the world take notice
You'll find strength When people being you down They will see If you will only, only believe
Someway, Somehow (Yeah, yeah, yeah) Don't give up now (Don't give up) Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah)
Someway, somehow (Come on, everybody) The time is right now (It's our time, yeah) Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah!)
Hold your dreams Don't ever let it go Be yourself And let the world take notice
You'll find strength When people bring you down They will see If you will only, only believe.
PS
3 more chapters of chem to do ready to pwn the paper :D
So yes. These are what people think the definition of friends is well, it's not wrong
What is a friend to me? lets have an BASIC overview of it
A friend is
one that comes to your rescue during a time of need if he/she is capable
one that trust you as much as you trust him/her
one that knows his/ her own limit, as well as the other's
one that understands you
ok, lets break this into simpler form ______________________________________________________ First point
It is pretty self explanatory this kind of friend will not make up any excuse to not help you just because he/ she can benefit from it. This kind of friend is the type of friend you can rely on all the time. ______________________________________________________ Second point
This friend has a trust in you, so strong that when a third party makes a lie about you, he/she knows it is not true, for a he/she knows you are not the kind of person who would do *fill in whatever lie* ______________________________________________________ Third point
This friend knows what is a difference between a joke and a fact. This friend know that when he/she crosses a limit, he/she needs to apologize. This friend knows that saying "its just a joke" will not help in any bad situation ______________________________________________________ Fourth point
(Please note this point is not exactly what it seems to be)
To be a friend, You don't need a person to know you inside out, you don't need a person to be able to predict your next thought and move right before you do it. that is not what it means by the tittle of the point. I know that because I have people I consider friends, but they know no shits about me.
My meaning of understand is when one knows another well enough to accept him or her. For example:
Tom broke a jar that belongs to Jane because he was incapable of holding it firmly, he broke his arm during a soccer match last week
Jane came in and saw the jar, instead of shouting at Tom, she helps him to a safe distance and clears the broken glasses up.
That is understanding. ______________________________________________________
"maybe appreciate the fact that we're trying to be friends with you"
So, to whoever that typed this before you typed it, did you actually think about it? like, SERIOUSLY think about it?
Maybe for you, how you treat me is how you think you should treat a friend that is why I am saying goodbye. This friendship will never work out especially when the "effort and understanding" is only one sided
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Met up with Vera at Starbucks, Tampines
Have a good holiday
The Duties
So yes.
